You & Me...

29/09/09

Today we skipped noon de class
And come Mcd for lunch and online
I told you that I will online after morning de class dismissed

After class dismissed
We rushed to Mcd
I was online while having my lunch
We chatted through msn

But it always dc
I try to reconnect
But failed also
And it’s late
My friends want back home ady

After that I messaged you
We chatted through messaging

When I was having dinner
You message me
I dun know why we talking about that day
You and KK
I so mad when I think back
I dun know why

Just mad and mad
I was loss control and replied your message rudely
I’m so sorry ok
I never mean that
Really sorry

I was begged for your forgiven
But you kept challenged my patient
Kept saying the words I dun like
I tried to control my temper
And will do as you want

I feel so scared
You know
Scared we will argued because of this
Scared you will mad at me again

You asked me still got contact him
Want me tell the truth
I tell the truth
I din contact with him
Really de
But you seem din trust me at all
Please ok
I din lie to you
Trust me ok
You know who I care most now
You know that
Dun say you dun know

Luckily we changed topic
And we successfully avoiding from arguing
Huh huh

You want me woke you up tomorrow
Ok I will
I set the alarm and will wake up earlier
To woke you up

Result comes OUT d...

成績出來了...

很糟糕...

退步得很厲害...

不懂要怎么跟老媽子交代了...

夭壽咯...

怎么辦....

剩一個月而已...

很糟糕...

沒心情讀書...

怎么辦....

很累...

最近真的很累...

可是沒有選擇...

還是要讀...

加油啦...

Worry about you

23/09/09

What happen to you
Din reply my message de
Last night you message me
Said you argued with your mom
And you cried d

When I read that message
I so worry about you leh
What happen actually
You din tell me also
Just said you feel tired and sleepy

And I not dare to ask more
Just ask you to rest and sleep earlier
And I remember I got told you that message me today
But you din

Din message me and din reply my message
What happen to you actually
Please tell me ok
Dun let me worry about you
Ok stupid piggy

Last Gathering before WAR 6

23/09/09

After class dismissed, we went Blogger for last gathering
ONLINE going back hometown tomorrow
So we meet at there before she back
We chatting about the trip at Penang yesterday
A lot of funny things and we so happy, laughing

After that we went to Juru
To Uncle’s house
But not find him also
Meet with her sis for going pasar malam
So long time din walked in pasar malam
But JUN MEI always bully me when we walking
And keeps bullying me and not the others
Just me nia
GIN NA really GIN NA nia

After buying dinner we sent her back to her house and we back d
Oh no it’s raining again
Fern sent us back and back home d
Gambateh and add oil together to get good result in STPM
The WAR begin d
Fight for STPM

Happy Day

22/09/09

Today was a nice day
Even feel tired d
After having our lunch
We went to prayed “Milk God”
To blessing we can get good result in STPM exam
But when we reached that temple
It was rained
All of us ran as fast as could to get into the temple
But we wet also at last

After prayed we went to Batu Feringgi
We planned want threw Online into the sea de
But she was sick and dun want to change the clothes
So we had no idea with her
So I planned to threw HuWan into the sea
Me Jun Kelvin Joshua Yan Ling
Caught HuWan and threw her into the sea
We make it
But at the last I also threw by them

But Jun always acted like people want suicide
He really almost drown
Cause a big wave causes him can’t stand steady
Kelvin tried to saved him
But he was pulled by Jun
I asked Joshua to saved them
But Joshua thought they played
Luckily Joshua saved them two
Huh

We went to Gurney watched G-Force
A nice movie
After having our dinner we back d
Even feel so tired but this was a nice trip
A happy day

Be careful...

21/09/09

After watching movie
We went for dinner in Raja Uda

But after having dinner
When I want to crossed the road
A motorcycle suddenly turned in the corner
My friend was shocked
And caught my hand immediately
Luckily got her beside me
She saved my life
THANKS o ONLINE

That uncle shouted at me
Like it was my fault
Hey please
There was a food court
Many people will crossed that road after having their dinner
You turn in a corner speedy
Din turn on the motorcycle light
HOW DANGEROUS
You know STUPID UNCLE

You dun care you life
But please TAKE CARE to the others
How bad luck those people that may be will hits by you
So as a road user we must take care over our life
Become more responsibility
Dun like that STUPID and IRRESPONSIBEL UNCLE

10 MINS to SAVE the one you LOVE

21/09/09

After having brunch with friends
We went to Sunway cinema watched TSUNAMI

DAMN TOUCHING
I almost cry out when I was watching that movie
Couldn’t imagine that
We just left 10 MINS or LESS THAN 10 MINS to save the one we LOVE

If we just left 10 MINS or LESS THAN 10 MINS to save the one we LOVE
Are we choose to save our life first or those one we love
Which one you will choose???
SACRIFICE or SELFISH
This is a hard decision

BUT for ME
I will choose to save the one I LOVE
Cause I can’t let the one I love die in front of me
So doesn’t how dangerous it is
Even I have to sacrifice my life
I will choose to save the one I LOVE

Friendship forever

19/09/09
Online Away Bom2 HuWan AhYi
Ti ka uncle kikiMon Malay
A crazy geng I ever meet
Including me la NUDGE
Haha
We have get through many things
Happiness and sadness
I feel so lucky can be a part of you guys
Really
We become closer and closer
That’s a good thing
But the time we get along with become shorter and shorter
So grudge

Everytime when I was alone
I feel lonely and down
I will think back the happiness time we had get through
My mood will be better
Haha

Our geng have done many crazy and funny things
We have makes our own memories
Even it happy or not
But it was the only memories that belongs to us
I would never forget that
Never and ever

So even we had graduated
We had separated
But must keep in touch and keep contacting each others
FRIENSHIP FOREVER!!!

Rainy day + Miss you...

19/09/09

Today dun know what’s wrong with my laptop
Can’t sign in msn whole day even I tried it so many times d
Frustrated and fed up
Haiz

Feel so sad and moody
Because of rainy day or
Why I keep missing someone
I asking myself WHY so many times
But still can’t get any answer

I should let it go
And I must do it
I have no other choice except this
Why you always appear on my mind
I keep asking myself to stop thinking of you
But it seems so hard for me
TOO HARD

But doesn’t matter how hard it is
I will do it
Everytime thinking of you
Just feel sad and heartache
Down and sometimes almost cry

Lately I keep forcing myself to focus on something else
Make my life become busy
Even went out with friends whole day
When I was back just feel tired
And I can’t think anything more
Cause too tired already

Is this way I choose to live
I dun know
And no body can give me an answer
No body

break PROMISE...

sorry ok??
you know i din mean tat...
i said i din go farewell party...
and you said i promised you already...

yes...
i admitted tat i promised it to you before...
when i wanna tell you the truth...
i know you will get angry for sure...
but at the last i choose to tell you the truth...
that i m not going to attend that farewell party...

sorry ok...
i will think about that...
maybe i will go to that farewell party...
ok??

i try my best....
ok???
what i have promised i still remember....

停電

14/09/09
12.00am
停電了
眼前一片漆黑
伸手不見五指

不會吧
超累的我已經躺在床上準備入眠了
先在才來停電
真的是超衰的
心情已經很不好了
現在不用睡覺了咯
氣到

好熱
超熱那種
跟朋友到樓下徘徊

原來這附近全都停電了
漆黑黑一片
像是一個dark city 一樣

在樓下站了好一陣子
就回宿舍 進房間躺著
還被蚊子叮了幾下
超癢
現在連蚊子也跟我過不去
是不是

挨到凌晨一點多
電源恢復了
萬歲
超爽的
終于有得睡覺了
肚子卻餓了
懶惰爬起來
就直接睡到天亮去考試

泪了

天快亮了 能不能别离开呢
沉默像首悲伤的歌 无声视线却模糊了
你要走了 也带走所有快乐
甜蜜的片段散落了
你倦了 心冷了 我哭了

那流星闪过 我们许下一个愿望
要在一起 绝不分离 你怎麽放弃了

星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过
当你放开了手 离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远 离开我


离开我了 梦醒了还剩什麽
我要的幸福消失了
你的心曾经属於我的

那流星闪过 我们许下一个愿望
要在一起 绝不分离 你怎麽放弃了

星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过
当你放开了手 离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远 离开我

有过的快乐我都记得
回忆还旋转着 爱怎麽停了
我们都泪了


星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过
当你放开了手 离开的时候
有没有一点舍不得我
泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落
我还留在黑暗中守候
你却已经远远 离开

What's wrong with me...

13/09/09
不知道自己是怎么了
一股失落感
心情超低落的
到底是怎么了
我反復問著自己

是想起你了嗎
是這樣嗎
或許吧
心真的會痛
超痛那種
怎么辦

我什么都不能說也不能做
只能靜靜的的一個人
坐在客廳發呆

昨晚跟你信息了
你今天考完試會過來拿回你的杯子
我提早從考場出來了
在樓下等你好一陣子
可是心想你沒這么快出來吧

過后朋友說要去吃東西了
我說我要拿東西給人
他就陪我等
等了好一陣子
你還是沒提早出來

我能等 可是他還有約朋友
所以就出去吃了
過后交代了朋友拿給你
原本以為會見到你
結果還是沒有見到面

過后跟著另外一位朋友去湖邊
我靜靜的坐在湖畔邊
凝視著眼前的一切
好靜好靜
真的好舒服

那一刻多希望你在身邊
可是那是不可能的
為什么到現在我還是會想著你
我應該放下你了
在我說退出的那一刻起
我應該就放下你了
可是為什么還會想起你
而且每次心都會痛

我是個提得起 就應該放得下的人
這才是原本的我
可是現在卻
我說我早就放下你了
是我自己騙自己的理由
至少我會更好過吧
會吧

謝謝

黃昏下的琴鍵太寂寞
來來去去只剩很拙的雙手
陪著固執的我

不停彈奏不停地犯錯
想起他為你唱歌時的溫柔
我會笑著難過

他能給你保護
代替我的照顧
這是我最后的祝福

謝謝你的結束
冷卻后的殘酷
謝謝你的知足
告訴我別再付出
謝謝你的溫度
記憶留在最初
謝謝你曾讓我 幸福

不停唱著愈來愈清楚
想起你看他眼中的滿足
我學會了服輸

他能給你保護
代替我的照顧
我只能偷偷地
為你祝福

謝謝你的結束
冷卻后的殘酷
謝謝你的知足
告訴我別再付出
謝謝你的溫度
記憶留在最初
謝謝你曾經讓我 幸福

想著手心的感觸
想著臉頰的溫度
謝謝你那些年
為我付出

謝謝你的結束
冷卻后的殘酷
謝謝你的知足
告訴我別再付出
謝謝你的溫度
記憶留在最初

謝謝你曾讓我們 幸福

放手不难 心碎了怎么办

其实我早已有所察觉
我们之间出现了问题
你已经有意想结束这一切
只是我还在逃避着
不敢面对
也许是我太懦弱了吧
无法面对失去你的以后
该怎么继续怎么走

那天下午当你信息我时
其实我在吃着东西
你的信息
越来越明显了
你想要结束这一切的决心
老实说
当时我还抱着一线希望
以为还有挽回的余地
可是最后还是没有

看到你要结束的信息
我的心顿时像是一片玻璃狠狠地被石子打碎了
碎了散落一地
一片一片
怎么拼也拼不完全
我吃不下了
一盘食物就这样倒掉了
当我走到后院时
眼泪不由自主的落下
我告诉自己不准流泪
十遍,一百遍,一千遍
眼泪还是倔强的不听使唤
在眼眶里打滚
不由自主地落下

我还故作轻松的回信息给你
我故作潇洒
能轻易的选择退出
只为了不让你为难和难受
可是你也知道我在伪装着
明明难过的我
却还要装着没事
越装就越显得我更难过
当初是我自己选择的
结果要自己承担
也许我早该认清 早该明白
有的路必须一个人走
有些爱情也需要一个人承担

黯然神伤的我
漫无目的的在家徘徊着
等着回来宿舍
时间一分一秒的过
心也一片一片的破碎着
淌着血 碎了

一整天没胃口
没吃晚餐就回来了
根本什么东西都吃不下
在午夜十二点多终于勉强入眠
可是凌晨三点多胃就开始痛
很无奈 很想哭
可是我没有留下一滴眼泪
也许这就是人家说的
真正伤得很深的時候 真的会痛到哭不出来
那才是最难受的
就这样躺着 让它痛到天亮
再怎么痛也不比心痛更难受

除了放手我还能做什么
除了选择放弃我还能选择什么
除了大方的祝福你我还能说些什么
除了这一切的一切
我真得不懂了我还能做些什么

承诺失效了
一切的一切都已不重要
现在只有一个身份
还是好朋友

HEARTACHE+HEARTBOKEN=TEARS

30/08/09 2.++PM

You said you when you are tidying your notes
You found the star key chain that given by me
Then you saw my message
I have sent a message to you
I asked you what you have said last night is true

When I’m typing this message
I can heard my heartbeat
Become louder and louder
Scared, afraid of the answer that given by you will disappointed me
But you never know that
Never and ever

Contacting with me, you get the satisfaction which someone can’t give
And I just replacing someone
Being close to me
You feel contented as you wanna revenged for someone’s fault
Someone doesn’t want you to contact me
So when you do against someone
You will feel contented
And lately your insomnia is back
Everything you do is out of your will
And you dun know whats wrong with you

I din realized you have send message to me
Sorry for late reply
I replied you when I saw that message
I said you should relax
Dun too tension
Just because of trial exam
Stupid
Just know how to make me sad

You asked me
Why I din get mad at you though I have replacing someone for all this time
You said
I should have been mad
I should have ignored you
Instead of showing my concerns

I dun know
I really dun know
When you want me back off
I will back off
But you can’t stop me to concern and care about you

You know I knew it since long time ago
That you tried to make me as stand-in
Just to replace someone
I knew it
You said you are doing this
Cause no matter how close we are
Nobody can replace anyone
The problems doesn’t seem solvable by doing so
It will exists still
You not gonna stop me
You not gonna control me either

Yes!!!
I got to admitted that I knew it since long time ago
And it’s the fact
That will happen anytime
Just because of my cowardice
Can’t face truth and the fact with bravest

I pretended like nothing has happened
Haha. Clever lo
I will back off
Dun worry
Stupid
Start from this second
We just friends and no more else
Haha

But at the same moment
My heart was broke
My eyes was in tears

We end with a message
With a simple message
At last at d end
You leave me alone here
With nothing at all

Speechless

30/08/09 12.++pm
Trying my best to find a topic to chat with you
But you seems trying your best to ignored me
You said you wanna focus on your studies
I asked then you dun want chat with me already
You replied me with dun ask you questions
You feel tired of answering
I was mad when I received that message
I said you never like this before
What’s wrong d
Ok! I won disturb you anymore
Good night!!!
I admit I was very mad when I read that message
After reply your message I was asleep
I saw your replied on next morning

You said you admitted that you’re selfish
You will talk with me when you have problem
You chat with me when you feel bored
You play with me when you feel lonely
You need me only when you need someone
You’re not a nice person
I should stay away from you
I should ignore you
You don deserve of my care

I lost my ways after I read this message
I don know what I should reply
And what can I saySpeechless + Heartache

无重力

画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头被停格

电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠入的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单 飘浮着

无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛 飘荡的心
却摔得更重

我爱你 你爱我 是不是 还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的 全落空
无重力 爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我 不受控制的手
还能抓住什么
我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落
最缓慢的折磨 只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后

画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头被停格

电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠入的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单 飘浮着

无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛 飘荡在半空的心
越挣扎却摔得更重

我爱你 你爱我 是不是 还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的 全落空
无重力 爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我 不受控制的手
还能抓住什么
我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落
最缓慢的折磨 只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后

I love you
我爱你 你爱我 是不是 还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的 全落空
无重力 爱坠落
粉身碎骨的我 不受控制的手
还能抓住什么
我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落
最缓慢的折磨 只剩遍体鳞伤的我
撑到最后

别傻了

还以为只要我装傻
装作若无其事的样子
就能轻描淡写的带过这一切
明明知道这是不可能的
心里却是拼命的这么想着
要用我的天真和信任来掩饰这一切
掩饰现实的一切
其实也猜到将会发生什么事
却宁愿选择逃避
都不愿意去面对

心里一直想着
就算只是千分之一的机会
我也不会放弃
会坚持着我一直以来坚持的一切
因为我相信你
我用了我的信任和感情当赌注
我知道赢的机率不大
可是为了你
我愿意赌上这一切

没想到
到最后
我还是输了
彻彻底底的输了
赔上那仅有的信任和感情
从来没有这么失败过
从来就没有

朋友常劝我
不应该陷得那么深
应该好好控制自己的感情
因为到最后伤得最深的还是我
朋友一次又一次的劝我
我每次都微笑带过
因为我认为
就算那天真的来临
也不可能会在现在发生
结果往往是出人意料的
真的发生了

这一切真的发生得太突然了
要我怎么接受 怎么面对
也许真的是时候
是时候学会放手
该放手了吧